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Well, a new year has rounded the corner, and  I'm sad to say that not much has changed.

Clueless on my future? Check
Heartbroken? Check
Unsure about life? Check
Questioning everything I've believed in? Double check

Maybe it is naïve, but I keep imagining that after each year things will be different. After a while, one beings to wonder how often situations can replicate themselves. I feel as if my life is stuck on repeat.

And lately, I've begun to question some of the things I have trusted in my whole life. A good example of this would be Love. As Moulin Rouge so eloquently stated, "The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and to be loved in return".  Love has always been my biggest passion in life. I had always believed that Love was the greatest and most important thing in the world, but as of several days ago, I became quite unsure of this...

A friend had told me the other day, "Your feelings are going to get your into a lot of trouble one day". I have always worn my heart on my sleeve--giving Love without thinking twice in hopes that one day it would be reciprocated. The hard part is telling which of those reciprocations is genuine... After this last one was an obvious failure, I really started to question Love's existence.
I may feel it within myself, but where is it in everyone else? Is it just me that actually feels anymore?

I'd really like to believe the answer to that last question is no. I'm still trying to convince myself.

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Hello everyone. I know that I went under the radar for quite a while.... I think it may have been several months. So I suppose I should fill you in now that I'm back.

I guess all I can really say is that I was going through a lot of difficult life/people problems. I had pretty much lost all of my artistic motivation and passion... There was a time when I even considered leaving dA and quitting photography altogether. I felt... drained. Emotionally and artistically. But I think I was able to turn it around at the last minute--just a day or so after seriously contemplating my quitting. Hopefully it stays that way. Being without my art and emotional outlet was... hard. To say the least.

Anyways. There have been bigger changes than that. I've finally turned 18, graduated, and am living in the town where I will be going to college. I have decided to pursue an associates in Radiology. I have no idea what else I would like to do with my life that doesn't include growing up and a host of other things.  

I've also found an interest in geocaching during my spare time-especially with my new man I enjoy hiking around and getting all scratched up just to sign my name in tiny logbooks hidden in tupperware and amo-containers, haha.

So all in all... Things are turning around for me. After years and years of not seeming to have anything go right, or being able to control anything, I finally have some stability. In fact, now that I have this newfound control over my life I'm not sure what to do with it. hah. I suppose it's not a bad problem to have.

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